Written By Debbie Myre
Grieving the loss of my husband, I was given an amazing gift of one last hug to get me over that rough time.
I lost my husband on March 2, 2019 to complications from a second transplant that was supposed to cure his reoccurring, very aggressive form of Non-Hodgkin lymphoma. He and I were soulmates. He was and is the love of my life.
He had very bad side effects from his treatment and died fairly suddenly of septic shock. We didn't get to say goodbye because the hospital put him on a ventilator and paralytic medication, so he wasn't able to speak again.
I was having an extremely rough time with his death. I believe I had been in denial of even the possibility of him dying and was in very deep grief. It felt like my grief was really winning the battle.
I had a dream one night and kept hearing song lyrics going over and over in my head. It wasn't a favorite song of mine and I took it to be a direct message from my husband. The lyrics kept saying over and over, "talk to me, like lovers do…talk to me" (Eurythmics), so I began talking out loud a lot to my husband.
A Blessed Gift
With out 45th anniversary approaching, during all my crying I talked out loud to him and told him how badly I missed him and all the things that I missed. I told him I just wished I could have one more hug.
Later that evening, I actually started hearing what sounded like buzzing, static electricity, like high power lines. I could feel the energy and then felt a hand touching me from behind (I was lying down on my side on my bed watching TV). I got very frightened and tried to fight it off, as I wasn't sure what was happening.
Then I saw his energy hand, like an outline of electricity. He reached his hand out and entwined his fingers in my hand. I tried to grab his hand to kiss it but my hand went right through his.
I could feel the power of his energy. It was beautiful, but scared me at the same time. I told him I could feel his energy. He put his cheek against mine. It only lasted a few seconds but I will never forget it.
My cheek, shoulder, back and hand tingled all through the next day. It gave me so much comfort and peace. It was a blessed gift that I will cherish for the rest of my days. I slept like a baby that night.
TOSP: What do you hope those grieving will receive from sharing your story?
I hope it can help someone who may be grieving to know their loved one is with them. That they can hopefully receive a message from their loved one. I get comfort from hearing about others who have had communication from their loved ones. It helps me.
Thank you to Debbie Myre for sharing her story.